Just over five weeks ago, I went out to lunch with two fabulous friends--Kammie and Melayne. Kammie I've known since I married Jacob (she married Jacob's cousin and has always been on of my favorite people). And Melayne I've known since I moved into our current ward, which is also her current ward. (She is a new member of my favorite people list.) What I didn't know is that the two of them have become best friends in the last few months and have been so kind to include me in lunch and visiting. I've loved it.
During said lunch, they happened to mention that they were running a half marathon the middle of June. I had no idea either of them ran and told them I was impressed. They mentioned they weren't really runners, but were challenged to do it by Melayne's sister and were going to give it a try. They had been training for a few weeks.
And then, my inner voice, the one that is nutso started to wonder if I could run the race with them. And before I could hush it up, it wondered out loud.
(Now you have to understand something about me at this point in my life. I just went through the craziest
year eighteen months of our marriage--three moves, one high risk pregnancy, one baby, one husband traveling weekly for months and months on end. I am in no shape to run three miles, never name 13.1 miles. And I'm not being hard on myself, it is beyond true. I've been in survival mode for so long it is getting kind of ridiculous. I need to do a whole lot of things with my health before I even think about starting to run again. I knew this all, but still couldn't help it. I'm so competitive with myself it is kind of obnoxious.)
And of course, these two awesome ladies completely acted like I could totally run a half marathon. And my delusional self believed them. At least a little. (Even though I have never run more than 6.2 miles straight and that was
years ago.) And so I told them I would think about it for a couple of hours and get back to them.
And I did. And within three hours after lunch ended, I was signed up for a half marathon less than five weeks away. I am literally insane.
I started training and did quite well for about 2 1/2 weeks. I broke no records and was majorly out of shape, but I was getting in 3 or 4 miles a day. Which was fabulous. And not even close to 13. But I kept going. Until the last two weeks. When life turned crazy again and I hardly trained. Not good. Not good at all.
But my competitive-with-myself self still wanted to give it a try. Because as I told Jacob, "I truly would rather try and fail then not even try at all." And anyone who knows me knows that apparently my body has been taken over by Pollyanna, because that is not like the Linn Allen I know. And I happen to know her pretty well.
But this past Friday, I packed my overnight bag, had the kids ready to tend each other for a little while before Jacob could come home from work, and drove off toward the city of Provo with Melayne and Kammie.
And all I could think is, "I have lost my everlivin' mind."
That night, we headed to store because Kammie and Melayne wanted to wear matching shirts and socks. And just as we had picked out what we wanted, Melayne and I got an email from our bishop asking us to pray for a sister in our ward that is fighting cancer. Things had turned scary and it was not looking good. Melayne happens to be a very good friend of hers and so we decided to put away the shirts we had picked out and to find ourselves some pink to honor our friend Patty. Who through prayers and miracles and the kindness of our Heavenly Father, is recovering better than ever expected at this exact moment. I'm so, so grateful.
Okay, back to the race.
That night, we stayed at Melayne's sister-in-law's house (so kind of her!) so we could be closer to the race and wouldn't have to wake up so early. Um yeah, if someone had mentioned the wake up time in the original plan, I think I might have quieted that inner competitive voice of mine immediately. Even staying 15 minutes from where we caught the bus to the starting line, we had to wake up at 3:15am. Sweet waffles, it was not pretty.
But the view when we got the starting line and the sun started to show up sure was.
The starting line just before 6am. I thought I would be dying of nervousness, but I think
I was too tired to be nervous. I should mention that I got three hours of sleep. Awesome.
The race started and all I could think is, "Just one foot in the front of the other. Nothing more."
A couple of miles in and I was feeling surprisingly good.
This beautiful site (boy howdy, I love waterfalls) didn't hurt.
It was the most beautiful route. And while I wasn't breaking any speed
records, I continued to feel good and it was fun to stick together as a team.
Mile seven and I'm not dead?
(But my cheesiness in this picture almost killed me after.)
Half marathon selfie, Linn-style. Listen people, I didn't have time to worry about
a cute picture at this point. I had made it 9 miles and only had four left. Miracle!
This here picture was taken by my sweet and amazing husband. I had asked him to not
worry about coming all that way, as first, I was nervous I was even going to finish and
second, I didn't want him having to lug all the kids so far. He didn't listen to me and even
though I didn't realize it would be the case, it meant the world to me. Seeing Jacob and the
kids with their signs cheering me on at several mile markers had me teary. You wouldn't
think it would be such a huge deal, but it honestly kept me going. I'm so blessed.
(See my sweet kids running alongside me up above? Good grief, it makes me emotional all over again.)
We were getting pretty close at this point. Just a couple of miles to go.
And this group cheering me on made me feel like I truly finish this race.
A quick pause for a family photo. We didn't mean to get the mile 11 marker
in there, but hey, I appreciate one more bit of proof that I did this thing.
And we finished!
And I didn't die.
And I actually didn't hold the other two up.
And I love my family like crazy.
And I'm already signed up to do another half.
Which means I've totally and completely lost my mind.
But what is new?
(By the way, I thought about wearing my medal to the church the next day.
You know, just because it matched my outfit. But I didn't want to make anyone jealous.
I think my inability to walk for the following three days did enough of that.)