Outside the temple was dark and windy and we were so happy. Last night was incredible.
My darling mom's health hasn't been great of late and we missed her tonight for sure.
My sweet dad had spent the entire day as a temple worker and still chose to come back and
share in this special evening. Jacob's wonderful parents are seven thousand miles away serving
the Lord and there was a hole we all felt with their absence. After an invitation from us,
our amazing stake president tried to be with us tonight and did everything he could to attend,
but releasing a newly returned missionary is mighty important too. But his incredible wife
came and supported and loved and kindly lessened the bit of sadness we were feeling at not
have either grandma there. Both my cute dad and darling Carolyn left before pictures, but I
will never forget their love and support on this joyful night. Not in a million years.
Tonight will always be one of my favorite memories of mortality. I just sobbed at the
overwhelming happiness I felt to be in the most wonderful place on earth with this boy
who made me a mother and who makes me so proud I could burst.
God is good.
He is so very, very good. And I am so ridiculously blessed.
On the way home, I had so many thoughts floating through my mind. Going through the temple
for the first time with Campbell
made his upcoming mission more real than anything else thus far.
I will miss Campbell with a fierceness that I can't
even describe. And while I'm allowing
myself to feel how I feel without
judgment, I also try hard to focus as much as possible on
how proud we
are of him and his decision, how kind the Lord is to let us be a part of
His
work here on earth and what a blessing I am being given to allow
myself to trust my
Heavenly Father enough to turn my son over to Him for
the next two years.
In addition to all of that, what also makes
my heart break a little is the knowledge that
when Campbell leaves, our
family will never be the same. Even when he returns, he will be
off to a
new and different world and that is exactly how it should be. That is
what I'm raising
all of my children to move toward and to focus on and
to rejoice in. So I'm thrilled. But this
era of having all of my six
chicklets home where I can keep them close and love them and be
there
and fully available is coming to a close. And as excited as I am for
this next step,
and I really am, I'm mourning what has been and what
feels so very brief to this mother.
Life is good. And is filled
with beautiful memories behind us and so much wonderful ahead.
I feel
grateful beyond measure. Last night was glorious. Onward and upward.