Just love these two so crazy much

Another tournament win for Nate

 And then in more stud news of the weekend...this boy won the championship of his
St. George soccer tournament Saturday! And scored the most amazing goal to ignite the team
and get them fired up. Oh I love him and his incredible heart and his choice to work his head
off to become the MOST amazing soccer player. Love this Nate boy so much.

Another tournament win for Ben

Look at this guy who took FIRST PLACE in his tournament today! Out of 35 players and
playing 40 holes. I'm especially impressed with this win, with him coming off of a significant
injury the last few months of 2025. It was a pretty big tournament for sure and I'm so proud of
this boy who works his head off to compete in this sport he loves. Oh this Ben Allen, I'm a fan.

College bound

This stud got the news a few days ago that not only was he admitted to BYU, but he also received a
scholarship to help pay for expenses. We’re so proud of him and who he chooses to be and his insane
amount of hard work the last several years. All three schools he got into are tremendous and it will be
exciting to see where life takes him the next many months. He’s so amazing. I’m so honored to be his mom.

An evening of ballet

This sweetest girl, went to Ballet West's performance of Peter Pan last night, because of the generosity
of one of the school play directors who gave us tickets to the performance, as a thank to Grace for helping
choregraph one of the main dances of the school play this year. It was just such a kind thing to do.

The athleticism and talent of these dancers was unreal. I couldn't get over it. And now,
many months into dancing pointe, Grace had a small idea how incredible it was what
these dancers were doing. I loved watching her filled with so much happiness
and awe. It was a good night. I'm so thankful I could experience it with our girl.

7th grade

This beautiful girl registered for 7th grade last night. Our sixth and final time.
I'm so blown away that we are here with our youngest already. But she is definitely ready.
Love her and her amazing, fun, hilarious, darling self more than I can say.

A Saturday afternoon hike

The best dad, the sweetest girl

A fun night

The most fun night with Grace's darling friend. I'm so thankful for how good
Ella's family is to our girl. They are just the best and we are so thankful for them.

Soccer tournaments and incredible dads

Right after returning from Sierra Leone, Jacob insisted he be the one (going so far as to uninvite
me and insist I stay home and rest and recover from the last few weeks) to take the three youngest
 to St. George for a long weekend for Nate's soccer tournament. Not only did he make it possible
for me to have some quiet time to heal, but he made those days incredibly fun for the kids.
He's honestly just the most tremendous. Always giving, always serving, always wanting what
is best for us. I'm so grateful for him. And so are the kids. We are forever the luckiest.


I was honestly so confused by this picture at first, until I realized which shirt Ben
had taken down to SG and had worn on this particular day. Hilarious.

My favorite books of 2025

Well, I realized as I started this post that this will be my fifteenth year straight of sharing my favorite books. Madness. And because I read a lot of books in 2025, eighty in total, I ended up having quite a few that I liked a lot. Especially considering one of the books below represents one of six in a series that I absolutely loved. So goodness, this is a long list. 

Let's get going.

The Book of Mormon
This will always be my favorite book, which is why I read it multiple times in the year. I always make sure I spend time in this book, each day, before I read anything else and it makes a difference in my life. Big time. I'm so thankful for this book. 

The Let Them Theory
Tremendous, tremendous book. One that I think every human would benefit from reading. It's just what it sounds like. Only it's not just what it sounds like. Highly recommend.

The Women
Goodness, a very well-written, but hard-to-read historical fiction about the Vietnam War. Kristin Hannah certainly has a gift for writing and I thought about this book for days and days after I finished it. Some strong language here and there, just a warning.

The Seven Sisters
This book was so fun and easy to read, I absolutely loved it. And was so excited to hear it was a series. But never made it through the second book, it just wasn't the same, even though I gave it hundreds of pages to be sure. But this first book, so great.

The House of My Mother
Good. Ness. I knew about this story from the news, but it was something else to listen to it, from the daughter's perspective. I thought she handled it carefully and well, but just absolutely heartbreaking. 

The Mother Next Door
I knew what Munchhausen by Proxy was, but this story just made it that much more real. I cannot even fathom. Excellently written though, even if difficult to imagine in the slightest.

A Game of Hearts
I read at least three books by Joanna Barker, starting with this one, and they are just so fun and fabulous and witty and made me laugh over and over. Such a gift for writing and such clean, sweet books.

Leap of Faith
I thought this was such an interesting and good book. Nothing too huge, just fun to read. I liked it enough that I was excited about the series, but like the book above, couldn't get into the second one, which was disappointing.

All My Knotted-Up Life
This memoir by Beth Moore was toward the top of the favorites this past year. She is absolutely hilarious. And so faithful and good. And she wins extra points for me as someone who stood against our current administration, when they were in power the first time. And it was popular to back the president when you called yourself a Christian—especially a well-known Christian. She took a tremendous hit for it and still did what she knew was right. Bravo to Beth Moore. I'm a fan of her for a lot of reasons.

Make Your Bed: Little Things That Can Change Your Life...And Maybe the World
This book is written by a retired US Navy Admiral and is just really good. Really short, to the point, has some amazing ideas and I enjoyed it very much.

Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents
This book changed my life. And I don't say that lightly. I plan to listen to it every year to truly understand the life changing work and ideas of Dr. Lindsay Gibson. I'm so thankful that someone could put into words, and help me to understand, many things about my life that I have never been able to. And I love that she talked so much about how these parents are often not horrible people, that isn't the problem. That felt extremely true and important to me also.

Michael Without Apology
Not sure there will be a year that I don't include a book by Catherine Ryan Hyde, but this isn't the year. This book was amazing. My word, some of her one-liners actually stop me in my tracks (I often listen while I am out walking) and I have to process them for quite a bit before I can move on. Loved this book, love this author even more.

Soundtracks
Read this book. Read it now. It's so, so good. I mean, if you know me, I'm clearly not an overthinker, but I hear things. Ha. No, this book was one of my very favorites of the whole year. Helpful, informative, hilarious, all the things. You should read it. For real.

The Unselected Journals of Emma M. Lion (Volumes 1-6)
I love these books. I really love these books. I could read these books all day and never tire of them. In fact, after reading six of the eight that are out (there are supposed to be twenty-four released eventually), I stopped. Because I didn't want to be finished with them and not have more to read. But I'm now realizing I should finish the eight and just start over. How did this not occur to me until now? Aside from The Book of Mormon, if there is one book/series on this list I would say read for sure, it is this series. The happiness I feel when I read them, the amount of times I actually do laugh out loud, is off the charts. The writing and the story just bring me immense amounts of joy. Emma Lion is the best. And a dear friend. And no one will convince me otherwise. Don't use your  "she's not even real" logic on me, I care not.

Okay friends, that was a long list. Which means it was a good year of reading. I'm so grateful

Darling, growing up Grace

The cutest girl, on her way to her HOPE squad conference this morning. 

A work trip to Sierra Leone

Jacob spent nine days in Sierra Leone this month and saw some amazing miracles that God brought to
pass, so he could accomplish some pretty intense and time-sensitive work for the church. It was a more
difficult trip than the last few, but I never once heard Jacob complain. He just laughed that he had to
shower with a bucket, that he had to ask for soap and toilet paper at one of the hotels, that the heat and
humidity was intense beyond words and that there was one area where securing food was pretty much
impossible, so he was glad he had a few granola bars during those days. It was hard for me to think
about him going through that, but it wasn't hard for Jacob. He just did what needed to be done and
thanked God for how he made many things possible that looked very impossible when the trip began. 

We are still so honored to have been chosen to do this work that matters a whole lot. It is beautiful and
 good, difficult and exhausting, right and chaotic. Kind of like life. But that is exactly the combination
 that God sets His hand on and helps to thrive. It's incredible to watch. And humbling to be a part of.
Oh our God is mighty and good. And loves His children beyond imagination. It's beautiful to witness.

Sacred and hard

The most beautiful and difficult reminder today of the fragility of life, the tremendous blessing
of sitting in a room with some of the most awe-inspiring people I have ever known and just
overwhelming gratitude for God and His plan, beyond what I could ever convey. So many tears
and the strongest desire to be more like Matt. And to never stop being thankful for my Savior
who gave everything so that this isn't the end for Malerie and Matt and their sweet family.
Today was so sacred to me. I'll forever be grateful for the privilege of being there.

Eighteen years of our amazing Ben

This incredible birthday boy

 
Happy Birthday to our incredible Benjamin! The fastest of eighteen years with the most amazing of
young men. Watching this boy grow and mature into who he has become is such a privilege. He’s hilarious
 and good, kind and quick-witted, inclusive and brilliant, talented and driven. He craves authenticity and depth
in his conversations and friendships and in life in general. He cares about people, the world around him
and being more like his Savior. He just quietly goes about doing a whole lot of good.

I’ll never forget when Ben was born, too early to breathe well on his own. And I sat by his bedside
in the NICU, with tears streaming down my face. Not because of my worry for his health gratefully,
 God had already assured me he would be fine, but because I was absolutely overwhelmed with who
he was in his soul and I could feel that goodness and power, in that tiny five pound six ounce body,
to the point that it took my breath away. I knew then, and I still know now, what a honor it is to
be entrusted with this boy and to be his mom. I’ll never stop thanking God for the privilege.

Happiest Birthday Benjamin Jay, we love you so much son!

The days between Christmas and New Year's

Annie took the two youngest skiing. She's the best big sister.

Jacob and Nate had a chance to join Nate's friend and his dad on a quick skiing trip
to Jackson Hole. It was fantastic. And was made that much better by Nate and Jack
meeting Kai Jones (the lovely, waving fellow to the right) on their last morning there.

Grace and I saw Frozen at Hale Centre Theatre one evening and it was absolutely amazing.
Yet even with that, I still enjoyed watching Grace's reactions more than the actual play.

Jacob took some of the kids to the driving range on New Year's Eve and all of them bowling later that
night. The wait for their turn took so long, they decided to do a few arcades. Oh he's the best dad.

Grace found out I had never actually seen the movie Frozen and one night, we watched
 most of it in my bed (still need to finish the last little bit before she heads back to school).
Pretty good movie for sure. I really should have watched it a year or twelve ago.

Nate and a few of his teammates competed in an 3v3 indoor tournament that his club put on during the
break. And went undefeated in four games to win the championship. Oh this boy loves soccer.

And while I'm truly so happy for him and of course it is right, our sad news of the break
is that Matt moved out. He's living with some wonderful friends, not too far away
(but closer to his work and school). They found a fabulous place and it is going to
be great. But we already miss him. A lot. Gratefully, we still get to see him often.
Oh kids growing up and moving away. It's the best and the worst, all mixed up together tight.

A day of heartache and gratitude

Even with my immense happiness for him, this one feels like a little too much. Especially following
the heart shattering news regarding a dear friend yesterday. Life already felt far too fragile and I’m kind
of not interested in a world President Jeffrey R. Holland isn’t in. At least right this moment. He changed
 me in ways only my God truly knows. I’ll never stop being grateful for him. He did what he was asked
 so well, just so very well. I’m so happy for heaven. And for all of us who knew him on earth.

Amazing grace, how sweet the sound

That saved a wretch like me

I once was lost, but now I’m found

Was blind, but now I see

The BEST humans