Sun Valley ski trip

Last week, Jacob took the three youngest boys on a Sun Valley ski trip. They were
able to go with our favorite friends and from all accounts, it was the best. Two straight
days skiing, balaclavas making it safe and mostly, laughing and playing with

our friends we consider more family than not. A good vacation indeed.

 

Side note: Grace and her mom partied at home. Grace started skiing
this year and is doing amazing, but decided to sit this trip out.

So much kindness

Sometimes you have family show up and they make everything better. Tonight Jacob's aunt, uncle and cousin came to bring dinner to us, to thank me for something I was privileged to do to help out the family the last few days, and I can't tell you how much it touched my heart. Especially the fact that they then stayed for a couple of hours so we could talk and laugh and cry (just me, as always) and laugh some more. I needed it more than they could ever know and it brought me out of some numbness I was feeling, as well as a whole lot of emotional and physical exhaustion.

So why the picture of our couch? Well, because I was so into being with them and being thankful for our time together, I didn't take a picture of their darling masked faces. So instead, I took a photo of where they sat when they served me more than they could ever know.

Because it matters to me to have this here. To show my gratitude to three people I adore and love like crazy. And especially to remember how my Heavenly Father so often sends people to me when it matters most. And when I need it more than I even realize, until it happens.

I'm so blessed.

Flip flops and pedicures

While the boys are skiing, the girls are most definitely enjoying their flip flops on this winter day.

Cutest little love and her bedtime shenanigans

Annie and her roommates

My beautiful girl asked if I would take photos of her with her roommates and let's just say, there
isn't much that could happen that would cause me to say no to that kind of request. But oh boy,
it was cold.And yet, these girls are so darling it was beyond worth it. Especially my Annie. I mean
check out that last photo of her. Isn't it just crazy how much she acts like her father? Oh I love her.

 

Okay fine. Maybe she's a little like her madre. Bless her heart. Her amazing, incredible heart.

Oh, I love Jacob Allen

Twenty-three years with this guy as my Valentine. I'm surely the luckiest.

Well hello there winter

My favorite books of 2020

The Book of Mormon
As I've mentioned once or a dozen times, my favorite book is, and will always be, this one. I finished it twice this year. And shared some feelings about it in this post. I just love this book, and the truth it contains, so very much.

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I was a little nervous to read this book, because one of my favorite people (and a close friend) wrote it. And while I knew she was capable of incredible things (in general, but especially in her writing), I still feel like it is important for me to be honest in my opinion on her book, no matter how close I am to the author. And oh my word, am I being honest when I tell you this book is incredible. The subject was brilliant and exciting and fun and to say it was page-turning was an understatement. Friends, run to read this book. Run.

Just Mercy
I truly think that every person in the United States should read this book. I don't say that lightly. And not just because of what I am going back to school to study. We need to know more how the justice system works. We need to know the reality of what is going on when it comes to criminal justice and prisons and what others go through that we can scarcely imagine. Please read this book if you haven't. Please.

The King's 100
Such a fun, fun read. I don't know what to say except it made me happy and was well written and I just enjoyed it a lot.

The Fixer
I loved this book. In fact, I'm now on a kick reading every book I can get a hold of by this author. She has a way of writing that I just love. Yes, this is a young adult book, no, it isn't especially believable that this could happen, but did I enjoy it immensely? I did. Did I read the next book in the series and devour it just as quickly? Oh my yes. And did I recommend it to a couple of people close to me that did the same? Also yes.

If I Run
Super clean, super addicting (from the first sentence) and a super fun read. I read all three in the series. I wasn't a huge fan of the third one, but the first two had me reading fast and furious.

A Dress for the Wicked
Once again, a fun, fun read on a subject that isn't usual these days. I really enjoyed it a lot.

My Plain Jane
I personally cannot stand to use the term LOL. But with this book, that is exactly what I did. Over and over again. This is the second book in this "grouping" of books (not as much a series, but more a grouping about a certain topic--Jane Eyre if you haven't figured it out) and both have been fantastic. I'm a huge fan.

Without the Mask
I really wish everyone would also read this book. When you want to more deeply understand something that you can't understand on your own (in this case, being gay while also wanting to be a part of the gospel and church of Jesus Christ), you are so grateful that people like Charlie write tremendous books such as this one. I highly recommend it.

Fighting Words
This is a hard book to read. I don't recommend it to those that might struggle with a sensitive and triggering subject. But I'm still glad I read it. It was incredibly well written and I needed to understand a situation that I wouldn't on my own.

The Sound of Glass
This was an incredibly interesting read. I don't know what to say, without giving things away, except it made me think long after I had finished the last page. Different and interesting, for sure.

Quarantine

 

 

 

 

When you've been in quarantine for almost five days (due to a positive COVID test for our boy) and still have another week to go--you pretty much try anything and everything to pass the time. Including sidewalk chalk on this fine winter afternoon.

 

(This is not my favorite situation, but I can honestly say, there are so many silver linings. As in, so very many.)

Open our souls

"This is democracy's day. A day of history and hope, of renewal and resolve through a
crucible for the ages. America has been tested anew and America has risen to the challenge.

Today, we celebrate the triumph not of a candidate, but of a cause, the cause of democracy."

In my window

Because 401,288 are gone. And so many of them died alone.
There is nothing that is okay with any of it.

Love these darling theatre cousins so much

Back at it again

A whole lot of months ago, an impression came to my mind. Unexpected, yet exciting. And completely overwhelming. And skipping weeks and weeks of discussions and decisions and choices and information that was helpful to slightly alter my path into what it is now, this very week, I start school again. (I already have one handy dandy bachelor's degree that I'm super grateful for.)

My incredible husband (and my darling kids) could not be more supportive and excited and more sure of my success (wish I felt as strongly about that myself). In fact, this sweatshirt and pom pom were in my stocking on Christmas morning, courtesy of Jacob Allen. He's truly just the best.

I'm so blessed. So giddy. So overwhelmed. And so positive this is what I'm supposed to be doing at this time in my life. And humbled beyond words that it is a possibility and a reality.

Here's go nothing. Scratch that, here goes something. Something big and exciting and happy and good. At least to me. Yee to the haw. This old lady of the six kids is a college student again. Who would have guessed? Not I, says the Linn.

Our amazing girl

This little sweetie pie was nominated for the school character board a couple of days ago.
It was so cute to see her huge smile when I told her. And oh man, we love her teacher.
This is our second child through her class and she is one of my favorite people in the world,
no exaggeration. I'm so grateful for others who treat my children with so much kindness and
love. It means everything to this mom. And great job Gracie girl, we think you are amazing!

Love this girl...and her brother

This darling girl moved out today and moved into her dorm at BYU. I'm so excited

for her. And so thrilled that my two oldests will be together at college. Good grief,

time flies. How I have two children living away from home is beyond me, but man,

I'm so thankful they have each other. They are just tremendous. I'm one grateful mom.

Yesterday

Turning thirteen

Happiest Birthday to my incredible Ben! He is happy and kind and brilliant and hilarious and just so very
good. He loves skiing and fettuccine alfredo and making others laugh and being adventurous and his
Savior. Being his mom is an absolute privilege. Happy Birthday my darling boy! You are loved like crazy.

Truth

Three nights ago, I sat quietly in my bedroom and listened to Moroni 10, the last chapter of The Book of Mormon. Sixty-one days earlier, I had received a strong impression to listen to The Book of Mormon, in its entirety, before the end of the year. That involved longer periods of time in the scriptures than I am used to on a daily basis and I have been deeply humbled and profoundly touched by what it has done to my heart and mind and spirit.

I love The Book of Mormon. I know it is another testament of Jesus Christ. I know the prophets who sacrificed to write the words that our Father in Heaven asked them to are men of God. I am a different person because of The Book of Mormon. Every single day it blesses my life and makes me kinder, softer, less judgmental, more hopeful, more full of faith and even closer to my Heavenly Father and my Savior. I know it is true. I absolutely know it. And cannot wait to read it again this new year. Hopefully, more than once.
 

A good day

These pictures taken by my kids today (make so happy. As does the fact that Jacob was able to spend
the day with our two oldest. A happy memory indeed. Man, I love these people of mine so much.

2020

What a year. In spite of the majority of our year spent together and at home (which was glorious,
coupled with difficult, in and of itself), we still were able to celebrate some pretty remarkable events
and experiences. This year stretched us in ways that were both wonderful and just really hard. I fought
it more than I care to admit, but I also loved it more than I imagined I could when all was said and done.

May 2021 be more kind and gentle than 2020 felt to me, but still as soul-stretching and out-of-
my-comfort zone as would be good for me. (But possibly just exactly that much and nothing more.)
Mostly, may those I love most (pictured in this small representation of the past year) know that they
are everything to me. And that I am a better wife, mother, daughter and friend because of them.
And because of this year. This exhausting, beautiful, heartbreaking, ridiculous, magnificent year.

And to all a good night

 

Little Lamb

Painting by Jenedy Paige

I just finished listening to a talk by Neil Andersen entitled We Talk of Christ. It couldn't have been more perfect on this beautiful Christmas Eve.

Christ WILL come again. I know it as deeply as I know the profound love I have for my children, the intense gratitude I have for my husband and that heaven is completely and beautifully real. It isn't even a question in my mind. And I'm so very grateful.

I love when Elder Andersen said, "Nothing lifts my desire to speak of Christ more than visualizing His return. While we do not know when He will come, the events of His return will be breathtaking! He will come in the clouds of heaven in majesty and glory with all His holy angels. Not just a few angels but all His holy angels. These are not the cherry-cheeked cherubim painted by Raphael, found on our Valentine cards. These are the angels of the centuries, the angels sent to shut the mouths of lions, to open prison doors, to announce His long-awaited birth, to comfort Him in Gethsemane, to assure His disciples at His Ascension, and to open the glorious Restoration of the gospel.

Can you imagine being caught up to meet Him, whether on this side or the other side of the veil? That is His promise to the righteous. This amazing experience will mark our souls forever."

And as I heard those words, my Father in Heaven allowed me, for just a few seconds, to experience the joy of that moment. How incredible and glorious and beautiful it will be. I truly can't comprehend it. But just for a moment, I felt it.

Tomorrow we celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ, our Savior and Redeemer. His life changed mine. His Atonement made all I have and all I go through possible and hopeful and good and right--at least in the end. His death and resurrection meant my death isn't all there is, the final word.

He will come again. I promise you it is true. And I'm thankful to the deepest part of my heart for this knowledge. Because to paraphrase the words of one of my favorite Christmas hymns, indeed, "the hopes and fears of all the years [including a difficult and soul stretching 2020] are met in [Him] tonight."

And every night.

With much love

Merriest Christmas from our family to each one of you lovely, lovely people!

A very special day

 
Twenty-two years on the twenty-second. (That's today folks, happy anniversary to
us today!) It's our first anniversary where I've been married to Jacob longer than I
was single before. That makes me so happy. I love him so much. He is good and
loving and kind and handsome and makes everything that is ours shinier and
brighter and more incredible than I could have ever imagined or even known
I could wish for in my life. I'm so grateful he is mine. I'm so honored to be his.

Tonight

I couldn't catch more than a small glimpse of what they are calling

the "Christmas Star" tonight. But this sunset was pretty outstanding.

My darling bookends

We love having him home for the winter break because he makes life more exciting and fun
and full of music and laughter. I especially think Gracie girl loves having him around.

What your incredible kindness has done

 
I have wanted to update all of you incredible people on what came of the post I published on
December 1st. I'm grateful I waited since I've continued to have money come in for Mary's Meals.
It has absolutely humbled me to the core of my being to see what you all have chosen to give.
It is just beyond what I could actually share in words. So instead, I will at least let you know the end
result of Giving Tuesday and what will happen next year because of your outstanding kindness!

Here are the details by number...

37 people donated directly to me through Venmo.

6 people let me know that they donated directly to the Mary's Meals website
(and I'm sure there were more, these are just those that let me know).

$1674 was donated to me in time for it to be matched.

$520 was donated afterwards and was not matched, but still beyond generous.

$2194 was donated in total (from the day I published my post, until right this minute).

$10,564 was the total amount that will go to Mary's Meals in all
(the money that was matched plus additional money given).

503 children in a developing country will receive a meal in their place of education (or in their village if
their school is shut down for any part of that time) for an entire school year because of each one of you.

Oh friends, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I don't know if you realize that
many of the schools I visited in Zambia last year had around that many children or less.
It is very likely, an entire school of children will eat a nutritious meal on a daily basis,
for a whole school year, because you all are so generous and kind and giving and good.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Thank you from these sweet children.
And I think I can safely say, a sweet thank you from our Father in Heaven who is
so incredibly grateful when we serve any of His children. Especially those who
are actually children at this time. Thank you friends. I'm so grateful for each of you.

#LighttheWorld ~ Gratitude for my amazing parents

This is my favorite picture of my parents. I love it so.

I'm so thankful for my Dad. The relationship that we have, especially of late, matters so much to me.
He is truly my hero. I want to be more like him in pretty much every way. He has an amazing heart,
he serves others more consistently and quietly than anyone I know, he loves the Lord deeply and
has let that love change him into something extraordinary and he is one of the funniest human
beings I have ever been around. He's fantastic. And I'm just so grateful to be his daughter.

And my sweet Mom. I miss her tremendously. Especially during this time of year. But I've been thinking
lately that the Lord would not allow me to know so deeply and perfectly that heaven is real and that
she is there and happy and closer to me than I realize, without making it possible for our relationship to
grow and strengthen, even while we are physically apart for a time. And I'm trying hard to pray and listen
to His voice tell me how I can focus on that relationship with her. I'm so thankful she is my mom.

I'm so blessed to be Eb and Linda Davis's daughter. With their anniversary in
two days, plus the encouragement from the church I love to post about our parents
today, I just feel so much gratitude for them. And pray they always know that.

Snow fun