Floating about untethered

Monday morning, I woke up to my sweet husband telling me goodbye. Because I was 

doing well in my recovery and neither of us had any worries of something going wrong 

while he was gone, Jacob had decided to make sure that I did absolutely nothing for
the next several days by taking the kids on a little vacation. Without a single bit of
help from me (helpfulness since my surgery has been non-existent), he made sure
everyone was ready for the next few days, by not only packing everything for seven
people, but making sure the house was incredibly clean. The kids hugged me goodbye,
Jacob kissed me goodbye (reminding me not to do a single thing while he was gone)
and suddenly I was standing alone in my family room looking at this scene:

The house was perfectly clean, all of the laundry was done and there was literally

nothing for me to do. And so, trying to be a good patient for the first time in 

my life, that is what I have done for the past three days. Absolutely nothing.

And yet, spending several days with just myself has become a little on the lame side and

I have been anxious for Jacob and the kids to be home. As in, really anxious. I didn't tell 

them that, but maybe they sensed it or maybe they felt the same way, because I just got

a text from Jacob that they will be here in a few minutes. I feel giddy with excitement.

Today has been one of the harder days of my recovery. It seems like out of the blue I have felt

really weak and light-headed--almost like a horrible case of the flu I can't shake. And maybe

 because of that, or just by coincidence, I have felt more emotional than I have for many days.

I didn't really understand any of it until I was writing back and forth by email to my

darling friend in Boston. And mentioned to her what I had been feeling today and that

 I didn't quite understand it, but just knew how excited I was to have my family home. 

When her reply came to me a little while later, it brought me to tears.

You will undoubtedly feel much better when everyone gets home. As much as

you needed the rest, they are your life and what keeps you most grounded. 

Floating about untethered would make anyone light headed. :)

Yes. Yes. And yes. That. Exactly that. 

I'm so blessed. With amazing friends, with incredible kids and with a

husband who treats me like I am the best thing that ever happened to him. 

When actually, it is the reverse that is true. 

I'm so blessed.